I
wrote the story "Out of Time" about my ongoing character, Sossity
Chandler, a musician; and the story, like many stories about her, took the
title of a song. The song was by the Rolling Stones, a band Sossity likes and frequently does their songs as covers. The
character's love of their music derives from mine. The Rolling Stones were the #2 band
of the sixties, always in the shadow of the Beatles, but now that I have more
musical perspective, I can see that they deserved to be recognized for their
own accomplishment. The Beatles were a more creative group, but the Stones were
better musicians and their blues-based approach is appealing to me, since I play
the blues and perform them now and then in local venues. I, like Sossity, am a
die-hard Rolling Stones fan.
The
story takes place right after her divorce. If you know Sossity's character
biography, she marries, is happily married for six years, has two children, and
then finds out her husband is having an affair—and not with just anyone, with
Kathy Farisi, Sossity's old suite mate from college and a trusted. In another
story, she explains, speaking of her
husband, I find out he’s having an affair
with my best friend. My best friend—my roommate from college and someone I
loved like a sister. She taught where he taught. I helped her get a job there
because she couldn’t find anything after she finished her graduate degree. So
after all of that, the judge pretty much gives him our children half the time. She
is in a sad state of mind over this and over talking to her son on the phone the previous
day. Today, she is performing with her band on a talk show; the talk-show host will
interview her afterwards. She is not in the mood to perform.
While
waiting for her band to join her in the lounge, she hears the talk show host
and a guest discuss about how authors are often terrible readers. When they
read their own books, they don't do a very good job of it. The guest points out
that authors express themselves through their writing; this is the reason they are not good as readers or speakers. As she watches, Sossity realizes
this is true about her—that she expresses herself through her music and, when
she goes outside of those limits, finds herself at a loss.
Her
split with her husband has been devastating. She fell into binge drinking and
almost died one time from alcohol poisoning; kicked the habit but then got back
on the bottle, was arrested for drunk driving, spent a night in jail, and had
her license suspended. Her melt-down has been trumpeted all over the internet.
Stand-up comics make fun of her. She wants to lash out at her husband but her
lawyers warn her that if she attacks him publicly, he might sue. She has
refrained from criticizing him.
Now,
however, the dialogue on the talk show has given her an idea. She asks her band
if they could
do a last-minute change and rehearse a cover they had worked on yesterday. They
agree, and
she and her band perform the Rolling Stones number "Out of Time." The
lyrics are appropriate
to how she feels:
You thought I’d be your little girl
And fit into your social whirl
But you can't come back and be the first in line, oh no
You’re obsolete my baby
My poor old-fashioned baby
I said baby, baby, baby you're out of time
And fit into your social whirl
But you can't come back and be the first in line, oh no
You’re obsolete my baby
My poor old-fashioned baby
I said baby, baby, baby you're out of time
The
song is directed at her ex-husband. When Sossity sits down with the show's host
and asks her to whom the song she sang is aimed, she is evasive.
"Wouldn't you like to know," she says. The woman asks if it might be
to a man, whom she had known for six years. Sossity only smiles and tells her
to draw her own conclusions. Sossity knows she has found a way to attack her
ex-husband without fear of liability. She can do it through music. She will
sing songs and never mention him by name, but, when questioned, will indirectly
make it clear she is singing about him. Musicians express themselves through music.
Music will be the means for her to express the hurt and pain her former husband
has caused her. And she need never mention his name.
The
story appeared in Intellectual Refuge. Read
it here.
Two new novellas of mine will soon be published: Sinfonia: A Painted Lady, and The Court of the Sovereign King. More information soon.
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Happy reading.